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Friday, January 22, 2010

D: @ 21:51

today... was a.. alright day?
started out well well well
then...
BAM.
not good.
firstly ok if u all didnt know
my target for badminton is ultimately to beat uhum/
so today mrwee was saying about promoting her etc to bdiv ok it made me sad.
i thought i no longer would feel sad but i did.
real sad.
then the pilot pen thing she got to partner angel.
and im partnering pt.
not complaining about pt but...
SAD>
i almost cried on the bus
shit lah sth wrong with me already.
i told my mom and well (DUH) she could tell i was unhappy.
and... (to whom it may concern)
i know shes the second you.. i've never said it to you before but.. I, ME, NIOJINGRONG want to be the second you.
but i can tell shes is so going to be the next you
:(((((
so now i hav 2 options.
1) work DOUBLE hard for the coming year and the nxt
2) just give up
i know the ultimate one is the first option but wth ive been working hard ok?!
i do my own 'trainings' every night (heavy racket etc)
im guessing she doesnt even CARE about improving right?
but in the end what?
shes still better.
argh.
lifes REALLY no fair.
she really has the best life.
well ive was thinking abt it on the way home
(and seriouslyon the verge of tears at times)
and i realised how badminton was just SUCH a small part of my life and aft 2-3 more years i would probably not play it seriously anymore and just leisurely.
argh screwdd
wow what a long sad story sian just feel like deleting it.
haha i think some smart ppl will be able to read it:)
ok now i shall go support LCW who is playing his rubber set with chenjing and is losing 12-9
shit DONT LOSE:(
dont make the day any worst:(
oh!and i met my mortal today.
shes pretty^^
(no 'xo's todayD:)
JINGRONG

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